ajohn
Well-Known Member
The two nevers of my life;Going to a funeral,or getting married have been negated in my life this past month.Sitting at that funeral I kept thinking to myself "What a waste."At the gathering afterwards a lot of conversation was on the fact that I was dating again.People were happy for me,said I looked happy.I came away from that experience puzzled,because I thought I was doing OK.Sure,the last couple of years I've been on the ropes,but that's just life.I do not take it personal.I just get up and dig in a little deeper.
I guess around death,people just naturally reflect more on life.Say and do things cause the moment shows that time runs out.A couple of men pulled me aside and took a chance at telling me the truth;That I looked like a man just going through the motions waiting for death.I knew they were right cause it made me mad.All of a sudden my fox hole looked like a grave.Holy poop,talk about a"how the h*ll did that happen"moment!I went home,droped to my knees and asked my Creator for forgivness for knowing about happiness but never really believing I deserved it.
It amazes me when I witness other people brake the chains that bind them.I always feel like cheering for them.
Now I know it's OK to cheer for my life.
On 07/08/09 at 10:45 A.M.I married my beautiful wife Robin and made a choice to persue happiness.
So the truth is,that by letting go of my old idea about death,It left room for a new idea about living.
Anthony
I guess around death,people just naturally reflect more on life.Say and do things cause the moment shows that time runs out.A couple of men pulled me aside and took a chance at telling me the truth;That I looked like a man just going through the motions waiting for death.I knew they were right cause it made me mad.All of a sudden my fox hole looked like a grave.Holy poop,talk about a"how the h*ll did that happen"moment!I went home,droped to my knees and asked my Creator for forgivness for knowing about happiness but never really believing I deserved it.
It amazes me when I witness other people brake the chains that bind them.I always feel like cheering for them.
Now I know it's OK to cheer for my life.
On 07/08/09 at 10:45 A.M.I married my beautiful wife Robin and made a choice to persue happiness.
So the truth is,that by letting go of my old idea about death,It left room for a new idea about living.
Anthony
]. i learned a while back that i was also not letting myself be happy. some very smart people asked me one day , " matt what the hell are you doing?" to make along story short i began to really think about things and it all became clear to me. you have one life "LIVE IT". GOOD LUCK JOHN~matt
